yes im lonely, wanna die the beatles have a song for everything.

damnit, fuck all you gay ass parents that cant stay together! you doubters of love! i hate you!

i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really wanted to see jeff this weekned. but if you havent guessed already, hes at his dads house. this is so fucking gay. when do i get to see my boyfriend?

faren is right, im totally lovesick. and when elaine said what she did about me and my preferance of boys, she was dead on. too bad shes a lesbian, shed make an awesome mom. im not saying that gays cant have children, its that shed have a much greater chance at doing so were she heterosexual. i hear its really hard for gays to adopt. yeah, im just trying to be politically correct. *sighs*

so anyways, instead of being with my lover (giggles) ill probly end up doing something with michael and chris, hopefully elmo, too. santina told me she was going to stay the night at a hotel and get "fucked up". i dont know if she means that as in drugs or sex. hahaha.

im being a total downer.

so in stagecraft, i think ive finally got my group: ashley, rachel, and jake. were all doing the prom fashion show on wednesday and thrusday night (this is in about a month or two) and like ashley said, well be the laziest crew ever. but itll be great. today i bit this nasty discolored gummi bear. if i die, will you come to my funeral? it was pretty funny, we were making techno music by repeating a few words. i think they were "douche", "task", and "epilepsy". i know i spelled that wrong.

coincide is a nice word.

oh man. i went to the pep rally today, and i laughed so hard i was crying. first off, let me tell you that i come to these to observe, and today it payed off. the freshmen were absolutely horrible! at first they were all sitting, but later half of them were sitting still and the other half just stood there and stared. only one of them had a shaker. actually, this was the quietest pep rally ever. 'twas neat, it was. then later when the seniors and juniors started to get into it, there were a few seniors on the level below us that were absolutely crazy. santina and i were bent over laughing. so funny.

i really love the shins. holy shit check them out right now. i said now!

*sigh*

its been real.