01.23.04 4:10 pm
i wish it wasnt

ive had a headache for atleast a day now. im pretty sure i slept through the whole night, but im exhausted. my eyes feel like ive been crying all day, but i havent. i dunno. mom says were going to talk tonight. this morning the told me dad set up an appointment for me to see a therapist again. yeah, ive a lot of shit to say, but i dont want to go. i guess im just really used to telling noone. im home, and im completely alone (save the family pets). i think jeff got a new screenname without telling me. what the fuck? or maybe im being paranoid.

i just want to loose myself tonight.

its been real.