i did a really bad thing and read old entries from when me and jeff were going out. but it made me realize that there will be another time, maybe later then sooner, that someone will feel like that towards me. im so fucking young and its true we make things out to be way more important than they are. but ill have another. so will you.

and now im so excited. im free. im going to live.

yeah, this mood too will pass.