wow. im such a different person now than a was two years ago. i dont know how you people could stand reading my diary then. i feel so weird reading those entries now. i cant imagine feeling so down on myself. im soooo much happier now. i may not be at optimal happiness, but im sooo much better than i was. i was so jealous and miserable then. i hated myself. i still have my moments now, but who doesnt? im more confident in myself. god i feel so good! im going to explode!

tomorrow is matayas birthday party. its going to be tres fucking fun. im really excited. im going to smoke!!!

im very finiky with maurice. i bet i have him confused as hell.

<3!