today i realized how old my dog is getting. even her ears are fading to gray. it made such an awesome day become very sad.

i'm no longer articulate. my room is clean, but going to school is still very hard. i dropped painting II.

earlier today i was so happy and energized... i got a lot done. at the end of the day i am so scared and sad and helpless. i want to desperately to curl into a ball, disappear, cease to exist.

this is the semester that matters the most.

i'm scared.