06.05.17 8:44 pm
in all honesty

for every two to three days i have spent in bed, i have lived one day to the fullest. when i think about all the crazy things i have done, i think i'm happy so far.

matthew and i got back together not even a week after we broke up. taking things at a snail's pace while i focus on my mental health.

this higher dose of sertraline is actually making me feel significantly worse. i'm much more anxious and i've been crying a lot more. i'm spending more time in bed than i did when on 50mg.

am i dying? i mean, yeah, we're all dying, but... i think i might actually be dying. i think my past is catching up to me.