i honestly do hate getting told off. i really hate it when people tell me im a bad person. i know im a bad person. i beat myself up about it (mentally, not physically) every day. i know im a bitch. i know im mean. i feel bad for it. it doesnt make me happy. its like an addiction, like ciggarettes, you know its bad for you, but its hard to change your ways. do cigarettes make a person feel good? cause this doesnt.

i meant to show you my convo with jake, but i got rid of it. heres a point i remember:

"you care about the people you shouldnt, and shit on those you should"

yeah. doesnt everyone.