me and brittany are talking things out. i had no idea, but shes read my diary. so she got mad and stuff. i guess, i dunno. keath called me (yay! haha) and told me to get online to talk to her. i dunno if i should post the convo or not, but this is more of a little reminder for me. so just ignore this, k?
tobogganhead: hye, is somthing wrong?
ilove2and3: hiya
ilove2and3: umm so you wan tnew friends eh?!
tobogganhead: who knows
tobogganhead: im just not happy
tobogganhead: why should you care anyways?
ilove2and3: hrmm well then, you coulda told me n case this instead of writing it in your diary and us having to ask keath
tobogganhead: its a diary
tobogganhead: diaries arent for everyone to read
tobogganhead: so thats probably none of your business
ilove2and3: well it doesnt matter, if its about you thinkin that we think were 'too good for u' or something
tobogganhead: and i still dont see why you guys care so much
tobogganhead: thats about the jist of it
ilove2and3: okay allyson, maybe b/c we are better friends than u give us credit for, but hey what do i know
tobogganhead: more than me,. probably
tobogganhead: im just not really happy at all right now
ilove2and3: so if u want new friends,go ahead, find new friends
tobogganhead: maybe its just a phase
tobogganhead: i dunno
tobogganhead: but i feel like shit, maybe my minds screwed i dunno
tobogganhead: i dunno
tobogganhead: lifes just hard for me right now
ilove2and3: well allyson, you could have told us, instead of saying it behind our backs i mean we could help, i understand that you dont feel right, but we havent been askin you to go places with us b/c you roll ur eyes and act like you dont want to be there when we bring you places
tobogganhead: its just how i fell
tobogganhead: i dont know whtat rong with me
tobogganhead: and its harf
tobogganhead: hard*
ilove2and3: i mean if we didnt want you there we wouldnt bother
tobogganhead: i know i know
tobogganhead: you guys are good friends
ilove2and3: well, maybe you should tryin TALKING TO ME AND CASEY or goin to that lady at school
tobogganhead: i just ont know whats going on in my head
tobogganhead: and to be honest
ilove2and3: ...
tobogganhead: i sont fell like talking to anyone
ilove2and3: well hun, youre gunna hafta talk to someone
tobogganhead: i know
tobogganhead: it sucks
ilove2and3: i mean if you dont things are jsut gunna get worse
tobogganhead: im trying to be happy, i just keep ending up being sad or something
tobogganhead: and i want to be happy
tobogganhead: i dunno
tobogganhead: its harf
ilove2and3: i know you do, i know how u feel, really i do
ilove2and3: and i know whatcha mean
tobogganhead: maybe i should see a doctor?
ilove2and3: well i mean
ilove2and3: i think you should talk to someone
tobogganhead: or maybe its just a phase?
ilove2and3: and i think before u have ur mom take u u should talk to that lady at school
tobogganhead: but im really sorry, i dont want other people to be making a big deal about his
tobogganhead: yeah, maybe
ilove2and3: cuz i mean you dont want ur parents to get all worried if its nothing....i mean im not saying it is or anything..
tobogganhead: yeah, yeah, i know
tobogganhead: i think my moms worried already
tobogganhead: i can tell
tobogganhead: i dunno
ilove2and3: why?!
tobogganhead: cuase im sad a lot
ilove2and3: well, then if u think she already thinks something, talk to her.... i mean i know u might think im gay u might be like 'im not talking to my mom'
ilove2and3: but really talk to her about seeing someone
tobogganhead: yeah
ilove2and3: or jsut talk to her, that helps too
tobogganhead: i guess i should do something
ilove2and3: ask o rher advice
tobogganhead: yeah
tobogganhead: i dunno, cause its kinda hard to talk
tobogganhead: sometimes, you know?
ilove2and3: yeahh i know whatcha mean
ilove2and3: if you want to, you can talk to my mom, she would understand
ilove2and3: she jsut got over somedepression
ilove2and3: i think shes a manic depressant
ilove2and3: she jsut wont come out and tell me
tobogganhead: i did a report on that
tobogganhead: yeah
tobogganhead: its har
tobogganhead: d
tobogganhead: i guess
tobogganhead: i dontreally know, haha
ilove2and3: yeahh so i mean if you can ttalk to ur mom, u can talk to mine, she wont like go and tell everyone ne thing
ilove2and3: hell she prolly wouldnt even tell me
tobogganhead: hahaha
ilove2and3: whoah u laughed
ilove2and3: lol
tobogganhead: not really, kinda in my head
ilove2and3: im so funny
tobogganhead: lol
tobogganhead: rockin my socks off
ilove2and3: lol
ilove2and3: haha i bet i bet
tobogganhead: even though im not wearing any
ilove2and3: lol
ilove2and3: well u already rocked em off
tobogganhead: must have
ilove2and3: haha
ilove2and3: i bet
tobogganhead: i dont want to be like laura or anything, but i really im sorry if i made you guys feel bad or anything, i dont usually think before i talk/type, you know, haha
tobogganhead: and ill talk to somone
ilove2and3: yeahh i know i dont either
ilove2and3: lol
ilove2and3: okay well good
tobogganhead: and then i usually regret it, ha
tobogganhead: but im tired now
tobogganhead: ill cya
ilove2and3: yeah i know i do too, ohhhh welll
ilove2and3: lol
ilove2and3: bye bye
tobogganhead: later