after talking to faren i realized how self-centered i am. if jeff doesnt want to hang with me its partly my fault cause i reject him. so im definately going to talk to him and stuff. i dunno. hahaha, i really know nothing about relationships and the like. the more i think about it the more likely i see myself living alone later on in life. but im happy. just me and art. one of those people happy enough being alone. its really quite soon for me to be making predictions like this, as im only 16. so ive a lot to learn. i should probably stop laughing at him so much, too, huh?

its been real.