08.03.17 9:33 pm
lol
ok so
a few weeks ago i broke up with matthew because i thought i was gay.
i mean, i guess i'm queer, like bisexual but i really hate the way that sounds, so i'm sticking with queer. i definitely loved matthew so, so much
but
maybe i used that as an excuse? i still have wild oats to sew and a lot of personal shit to work through before i can settle down.
he told me he could never speak to me again.
i get it.
i'm trying not to be so hung up on it. i miss him terribly, but we will be much better off with other people. i don't need to list our incompatibilities here. i am learning more about myself and what i should look for in a partner every day.
for now i want to be single for the foreseeable future.